I'm not like them, but I can pretend

ok just got home from work and i'm exhausted. i didn't have a chance to take a break so i worked eight hours straight w/ nothing so i'm more tired than usual. things are getting a little better but things are still definitely a mess. i really think i should tell my mom what's been going on w/ me but i really don't know how. today in the car, i really almost told her........ i was sooo damn close but i just couldn't do it. i actually felt myselft start to cry cuz i wanted to tell her so badly. i think she sensed something was wrong cuz she kept cracking jokes to make me laugh. it didn't really work but i smiled to be polite anyway. i wish she would just ask me what was wrong. it would make it soo much easier to tell her. she has asked me what was wrong before but her tone sounds more like she's annoyed at me than actually sincerely wondering what's up. i just find it soo hard to talk to her. i know i shouldn't feel that way but i do. does everyone have that problem?

Peace Out!!