I'm not like them, but I can pretend

hi there kids......... i'm not really in the mood to do anything but i'm bored so i might was well update. i got off work a little while ago and now i'm trying to unwind. see all of u are prolly looking at what time i updated but my computer clock is three hours slow so it's really 3:30 right now. today was a very emotionally exhausting day. i've been depressed lately and i don't really know why, i have no good reason to be. the other night i was sitting on the comp talking to some friends and i started crying and thinking about bad things. my dad happened to come down to get ready for work and he saw me bawling my eyes out at the computer. so of course he asked me what was wrong and i didn't want to tell him but he wasn't gonna leave me alone til i did so i told him i was depressed. now he keeps asking me why i'm depressed and telling me that i have a great family who loves me, great friends who really care about me, and a great life. i know he's just trying to help but he's actually making it worse. i know i have a great thing going on here that i should be thankful for and i am thankful for it, i'm just depressed. i'm already upset that i'm not happy w/ everything i have and him saying it to me over and over really isn't helping. i don't wanna tell him that though cuz he really does wanna help me and he's trying the only way he knows how. well that's really all i have to say right now. i wrote more than i intended to but that usually happens w/ me. when i say i have nothing to say, that usually means i do and i just don't realize it yet. well anyway..............

Peace Out!!!