well it's official.  i've started stressing.  i have a gross anatomy test tomara (yes on saturday) that's supposed to be really REALLY hard.  i've been studying my ass off but i dunno if it'll do any good.  then on monday i have an anatomy lecture test which covers even more material than the gross anatomy test.  grrrrrr.  oh yeah and i have a psych test today.  that shouldn't be hard to i'm not too worried about it.  these passed few days have been quite interesting.  did you ever get the feeling that what ur doing isn't what u were meant to do?  but you can't do anything about it cuz ur not sure what else to do?  i've kinda been feeling that way lately and i don't know why.  i'm scared out of my mind because for as long as i can remember i've loved medicine and wanted to become a doctor or some kind of healthcare professional.  maybe it's just because of the difficulty of the courses this year but i feel like my heart's not in it anymore.  come to think of it, my heart's not in much anymore so i dunno what to do.  i'm so confused, and scared, and angry, and doubtful about what i'm doing with my life.  i dunno maybe i'm just so afraid of failing that i'm hesitant to even try.  as you get older and older, you get less and less second chances.  ppl put so much pressure on you to do everything right or know exactly what you want to do, and go do it without any problems.  it really just seems like no matter what i do, i'll never get out of this hole i dug for myself, and the "adults" of the world are handing me the shovel saying "here, we'll give you all the rope you need"  eh, i need a vacation, lol, sad isn't it?

Peace Out!!